Well that was good…

So here I am stuffing myself for my last final.  Its tomorrow at 2.  And that’s it.  No more schooling for my first year in college.  Scary.  Exciting.  Slightly Sad.

I’ve done a lot here in college.  I’ve learning about many things.  I’ve taken classes that have bent my idea of reality, and mutiliated my mind to so it could see the world in a new way.  But if I had to sum up my experience right now most of my writing would be on myself.  That is really where I have made the most progress this year.  

In high school I had a tight grasp on who I was and what very persistent about being different.  And while I was more than comfortable in high school, I am even more so right now.  I feel like I’ve really moved into myself and realized many things about myself.  

Recently I have shifted my focus from “how I am” to “how I feel” and I see the huge difference between the two.  To stop and any moment and ask yourself how you feel is a question of both the senses and of emotion.  I’m more concerned with the non-physical feeling here.  Just stop and think about it… it’s special.

Music is definitely something that has changed for me this last year.  I have started to look at music from a more analytical standpoint.  For those of you that really know me you will know that I really like to look at things with a scientific light, and I have just started to apply this to music.  It’s fun fun super fun.  

So that’s that. 

It’s an interesting time on campus right now.  People are finishing up their finals and just want to have a good time.  I too am in this boat, but I feel something else too.  I know that this year was very important to me and especially so because of the the people I’ve met here.  Though I realize that I wont see most of them for 3 months, there are some that I will not see for much longer than that. 

There are a couple people that will be graduating that I will miss way too much.  These people have really helped me this year.  Coming into a new place, especially a job environment, is a toughy.  You want people to know who you are but at the same time you have to learn about what your responsibilities are and what is acceptable and what is not.  These few people made my transision very easy, and for that I could never thank them enough.  They helped me get settled at work and by doing so I was able to make my job experience one of my favorite experiences here in college.  I love these two ladies, and will never forget them.

There are some people that I have only just begun being friends with that will be abroad, and those people I will also miss like mad.  I can only hope that we can keep in touch and when I see them next I will be able to embrace their friendship as if the time lapse hadn’t happened.  That’s how I think a friendship should be anyways.

 Well hell, here I am rambling away again.  The trouble is I know I haven’t been able to spill everything I wanted to here.  But maybe it’s better that way.  

Thanks for coming.

-Bennett Hamilton Cross (III)- 

P.S for all of those of you that were a part of my first college experience…thank you.  thank you so much.